Prepare Yourself for Backlash When Going No Contact [Advice for Adult Children]

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When the adult survivor of emotional child abuse decides to take a break (whether temporary or permanent) from the birth family, that decision may come to a shock to people in their social circles. From the outside of the family circle-—and even within it, at times—everything has looked perfect, tidy, and loving. To all who gaze at the birth family, the portrait of a good and loving family is all they see.

In that light, the decision to take a break may seem out of nowhere. However, that life-changing, painful decision has not come lightly. Many adult children have agonized over the decision, discussed it with mental health professionals, and also gone back to analyze all the years of small events and large ones leading to this drastic measure.

And when the adult survivor of emotional child abuse separates themselves from the birth family, they often upset the family’s self-image, reputation, or order of business, which leads to a backlash from relatives, friends, and, at times, even spouses. (At The Invisible Scar, we’ve heard of all varieties of backlash that adult survivors have endured.)

Common Reactions From Mutual Friends and Family When an Adult Survivor Goes No Contact With Birth Family

Disbelief. The adult survivor finds mutual friends or family members not believing the adult survivor’s account of their upbringing. Typical comments include:

  • “No, you were always a smiling, obedient child! You never said anything about being abused.”
    (Emotionally abused children are very often difficult to detect for they are appear to be well-behaved, cheery children. Those children are often desperate for approval and love, which means they will be on their best behavior all the time in the hopes of winning their parents’ love.)
  • “Your parents always gave you everything. You never went hungry, had a roof over your head…”
    (Emotionally abusive parents may provide physical necessities to their children, but they starve their children of kindness, gentleness, understanding, the sense of belonging, the sense of approval, and the knowledge of being loved no matter what.)
  • “Why didn’t you say anything before?”
    (Emotionally abused children often do not make the realization of their abuse until they are adults. Psychologists say this is because the child must adopt a sense of denial in order to survive their childhood… For example, how could a child cope with the realization that they lack love, support, and warmth from the very people who are supposed to give them that? A child may have feelings of soul-crushing depression and loneliness, but he will bury those feelings in order to survive the day to day of their childhood.)
  • “I never heard your parents say anything bad about you. Ever.”
    (Abusive parents often are not abusive in the sight of others. In public, the abusive parent may seem the pillar of society, but in secret, the abusive parent unleashes the abuse on the child. In some families, even the other children may not witness the abusive. This is a form of self-protection from the abusive parent. Who will ever believe the child if no one but the child has witnessed the abuse? Plus, the abusive parent can also, through time, build up their reputations as great parents in the opinions of other people in their social circles. The abusive parent may always speak well about the child to others or cultivate the opinion that their child is a little bit mental, depressed, needy, or sensitive… All that cultivating comes in handy when the child grows up and shares the story of abuse; no one believes the adult child, for they’ve been listening to the propaganda from the parents for years.)

Guilt. The adult survivor may find friends and relatives badgering the adult survivor in continuing the relationship with the abusive parents. At The Invisible Scar, we do not quite understand why that is but we’ve theories that, in some cases, the mutual friend or relative may have their own parental issues they are working through (or are denying) or the mutual friend or relative stands to lose something by the severed relationship (they may have social connections, a place of importance in their community, etc., that they deem threatened by the family riff).

Comments may include…

  • “Your parents worked so hard for you.”
    Children do not owe their parents anything. Repeat: Children do not owe their parents anything. Parents, by the fact that they are parents, should provide for the emotional, physical, and spiritual needs of their children. Just because a parent did the bare minimum (and in some cases, not even that), the adult child does not need to continue to take any abuse from their parent. A good parent delights in being a parent and the enormous privilege of raising a child; a bad parent seeks in being consoled, comforted, nurtured, and supported unconditionally from their child.
  • “You’re just abandoning them over a silly old fight!”
    No. The decision to go No Contact may seem sudden, but emotional child abuse is a lifelong campaign by the abusive parent against the child. What a mutual relative or friend sees is not the complete picture. Never.
  • “Your parents are old. They’re not going to be around for much longer.”
    You reap what you sow. In most cases, an emotionally abused child has spent his childhood doing everything possible to win the love of the parent. We’ve heard adult survivors share stories of emotionally abused children taking on parental responsibilities. In other words, the emotionally abused child was given the role of the parent and forced to give the abusive parent unconditional love, support, understanding, etc., and the child received nothing back. Now that the adult child is grown, the adult child does not need to keep doing that. The parents have to deal with the consequences of having been abusive parents. They have to deal with the repercussions of having abused their children.
  • “Your parents did the best they could.”
    So? Just because an abusive parent didn’t mean to be abusive, that doesn’t mean the behavior wasn’t abusive. And it doesn’t mean the adult survivor needs to continue putting himself in the direct path of abusive. An adult survivor who goes No Contact is protecting himself from the abuse, whether the abusive parent was subconsciously or consciously acting.
  • “Your parents love you so much.”
    Whether an abusive parent loves his child is debatable. (Myriad heated arguments have arisen on psychology blogs, survivor blogs, and conversations regarding whether abusers can love, but we won’t take up that point here.) However, just because someone claims to love you that doesn’t mean you have to be in their lives. The claim to love an adult child does not guarantee the parent a right to see that adult child or have that adult child in his life. Newspapers are filled with articles of people who allegedly loved their victims.

Silence. The adult survivor may find mutual friends and relatives choosing a side—and they will choose the parent. That’s fine. Let them go. They deserve each other and can get entangled in their own web of lies, deceit, and secrets. But you, adult survivor, live in the light, live in the truth. Being in the truth alone is better than being in the deceit together.

How You Can Find Help

If you’re an adult survivor of emotional child abuse, you may find yourself feeling alone once you decide to stop taking the abuse. However, know you are not alone. Help is available via a mental health professional or even a phone call (check out the sidebar for counseling services).

Stay strong. Stay in the light.


Just waking up to the fact you had an emotionally abusive childhood?  My 92-page PDF offers insights and suggestions for this difficult time… and beyond. For just $7.99, you receive What Really Happened: Finding Out You Had an Emotionally Abusive Childhood (and Tips for Healing).


veronica-jarski_authorVeronica Jarski is founder and managing editor of The Invisible Scar, a passion project dedicated to raising awareness of emotional child abuse and its effects on adult survivors. She has extensive editorial experience and a bachelor’s degree in journalism. Her work has been featured on myriad publications, such as Kapost, MarketingProfs, and Ragan.

 

144 thoughts on “Prepare Yourself for Backlash When Going No Contact [Advice for Adult Children]

  1. I am considering going no contact. I am tired of being reminded of those feelings that something must just be wrong with me. Along with the disrespect of boundaries and no regard for my feelings. As poor as they are, my connection with my family is all I have other than my daughter. I seem to have a hard time making good solid friendships even though I am outgoing. I’ve went to one type of support group for a few years and I changed groups twice when I experienced verbal abuse from a leader (I understand this, hurt people hurt other people). I found a awesome counselor who I have seen since that time but that is a service he provides and I need to find others that understand where I’m at and can root me on and me do the same for them. Any suggestions?

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    • True. By the time we discover just how pervasive the lie (about us) is, it’s decades later. Hence, the need to leave everyone behind. Not very encouraging, I know, but true nonetheless.

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  2. Reblogged this on Diary of a Disenchanted Diva and commented:
    This,
    “Silence. The adult survivor may find mutual friends and relatives choosing a side—and they will choose the parent. That’s fine. Let them go. They deserve each other and can get entangled in their own web of lies, deceit, and secrets. But you, adult survivor, live in the light, live in the truth. Being in the truth alone is better than being in the deceit together.”

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  4. The biggest problem of having a damaged childhood is that you keep raking in other damaged relationships. So your go NC extends to exes and whole lot of people that have passed through your life.
    Talk of multiple dyings

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  6. Reading all of this is tough. I think I went through nearly every single description on here. I was loaded with grownup problems from a young age. Both of my parents routinely dumped their issues in my lap. Did I mention, that they begrudgingly or didn’t help me if I ever had an issue? I dreaded needing their help b/c i knew it would come at a cost. It was never easy. And my parents gave me a roof and the necessities. Most other things in life I had to beg for. The long years of pain at always being there for them yet them never being there for me took it’s toll. And it was gigantic in size. I got married to escape from them, but that was a mistake too. I think I knew for a long time that I needed to leave. I was so scared though. Who would support me if I left? No one either way it seemed. I would no longer have a family and that hurt too much. I got to the point where even having the luxury of going to family for the holidays meant very little. I felt like I was on the outside looking in and it would always be that way. It hurt too much. I asked my mother to help me out after I went through some really traumatic stuff. When she told me that she wouldn’t help me b/c others would not speak to her again, I made the choice to leave for good. My life was at stake & she didn’t care. Her words cut like a knife. I still remember it vividly. I also knew her concerns over others would cost her me. Then I saw my father & it was the same thing. I kinda knew that would be the last time. I took the leap and ventured out into the world on my own & it was really hard. I am happy to say that now I have people I refer to as family. I have places to go for holidays and places where I feel safe. I am never abused. I don’t think about my family much anymore. If I do think about them it is with relief. Since I have amputated myself from association with most of them, I know that whenever they want to blame their life’s on me, it will be really impossible for them to convince other people of that anymore. I’m not in their lives so how can I be any way responsible for what is going on? I can’t. That was my life for 30+ years and I’m honestly glad it is over with. I do not even wonder about my relatives like what they are up to. I’ve stopped caring. There are times when I may panic when I know I may not ever see them again in this lifetime. But, really they had 30+ to do something/anything to appreciate having me in their life. They never did. I honestly don’t think it is worth making an effort for people who honestly never supported or cared about me even if we were related by blood. There was this one time when I was recently married, I had moved to Oklahoma from Mississippi. I lived there alone with my husband many hours away. My mother came through town with my aunt. They did not call me or tell me they were there. I called my mother who told me that they had been there and didn’t even bother to look me up. It was crushing & was so very cruel. I hope never to be as heartless as my family was to me.

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  7. Reblogged this on my song and commented:
    I’ve recently come “OUT OF THE FOG” I know the difficulties of finally finding the bravery to place the distance between you and a toxic parent. I understand the doubters and non-believers because everything always looked so “normal” on the outside…but somethings are not what they seem from face value…it’s only when you take the time to dig deeper that you see the hidden truths… I want others to know who may have experienced emotional abuse from their parents or a caregiver that you are NOT ALONE! Stay encourage on your path to healing and speaking your truth…it will get better after awhile.

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  8. I am a 55 year old adult female, came from a family of 3 kids and then one half sibling after my parents divorced and my mother remarried. My mother is a narcissist, I think I have always known it but really just figured it out this summer. When we were growing up my older sister was the easy temperament, my younger brother was the golden child, and I was the independent one, the one who talked back, the feisty one, the hard one to figure out, only all she had to do was love me, I would’ve done anything for her. She made me think I was crazy because I caught her having an affair when I was 4 or 5…I saw them sleeping on the couch in our house when my Dad was away for work. She told me it was a dream and she had the man call me and tell me it was a dream…I knew it wasn’t a dream. My inner strength was so strong, only thing that got me through the years with my mean mother. I have done it all on my own, bought a car, a house, got a good job, all without any help or encouragement from her. I have still tried my whole life to get her love and approval. I finally understood I will never get this, she is not capable of loving anyone but herself, and gives attention to others if it helps her. We have had some good conversations on the phone but in person she is different and mean. I can never do anything right. 14 years ago I went NC after my wedding for two years because she almost ruined it. Then I got pregnant and thought I should let her back in, but I was careful. More years have gone by and I slowly began to trust her and she broke my heart for the last time this summer. I am done. My father is kind, my husband is wonderful, and my daughter is our sunshine and my older cousin has made me the “daughter of her heart” and I feel like the chip on my shoulder is finally slowly disappearing. I feel calmer and more peaceful and that I can breathe again and that my sparkle will not leave on account of my mother ever again. I feel such a huge relief. I expect she will call one of these days. I don’t know what I will say or if I will even answer. I just know my reaction will for the first time in my life be healthy and strong. I would rather not have to talk to her or see her ever again. But for now, it is good and I feel so much joy and peace to educate myself with helpful sites like this. Thanks for your good advice.

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    • So good to hear your positive story. I have been NC from my Father since summer & feel much the same. At peace, joyful & comfortable with who I am & the people that surround me, I am coming up 45. What a journey eh? Xxxx

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  9. I am an ACoN (stepfather- 16 yrs of abuse). Thank God my mother finally divorced him. Unfortunately, as soon as my mom divorced my stepfather, I became involved with the man I am married to now. We’ve been together for 15 yrs and about 4 years ago, I realized that the reason I was having so many problems currently is because my husband’s sister is a full blown Narc, who has been very diligent in her attacks on me for 15 years, with all the expected problems, drama and upheaval that is common to Narcs. A year ago, another “incident” occurred with her (while at our house for our child’s birthday party) and it turned into a full blown family issue where all of my husband’s adult siblings, his mother and all of the teenage kids are piping in with their opinions and how “cruel” I am for not being more forgiving like a good Christian would … (ummm are they implying that I’m NOT a “good Christian”? apparently so.) I finally started going to therapy over this situation and was diagnosed with severe Complex PTSD due to my upbringing with Narc stepfather and Codependent mother, which has been really difficult to deal with. Ive gotten to the point of not trusting anyone, and I’m suffering a bit of agoraphobia. I’m not afraid of the outdoors per se, I’m afraid of seeing someone I know and having to engage in conversation – its just too hard right now. My childhood stuff is too much. and being triggered and slandered and smear campaigned and pity party games and getting all the kids/ cousins involved.

    Anyway- the SIL (sister in law) is doing all of the expected hoovering and blame shifting and her enabling family (my husband’s sibs and mom) supports her. My husband has even gotten to the point after so much pressure from them that he wants to “put the family back together” so we can all “enjoy” the holidays together, etc. I KNOW that I KNOW that I KNOW that these same behaviors will manifest again- its only a matter of time. I want to go NC with my husband’s family of origin for my own safety and sanity, and it seems like that won’t be “allowed”. We’ll see about that. If I am going to be forced to interact with this person (who by the way has threatened to burn my house down with my kids inside while I was on vacation out of town, she has threatened to come to my office and “beat me up” in the parking lot (I laughed at her and said “you know where I live, why wait till I’m at work… just come over right now.”), I will be employing the Gray Rock Technique when being forced to interact with her. My husband and his family know that she’s unstable but they say “that’s just the way she is.. gotta love her for who she is, right?” Nope. I don’t have to love a Narc for the way they are. I will not be forced to roll over and die for someone else’s enjoyment. I’m certainly glad that I found this site and a few others recently. Its really helping with the lack of validation that I’m finding in the real world.

    If anyone has some tips that might help, I’d be happy to hear them.

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    • It’s been about 6 mos since you wrote this. I really hope things have gotten better for you though I imagine that they could just as easily gotten worse.

      Starting therapy seems like a good start. Has your husband gotten involved with it too? IMO, getting him to realize that supporting you is crucial would be important. Obviously, no one can force him to do anything but maybe the therapist could help him understand his role in all of this. I’ve always believed that when someone stands by without helping when another person is being mistreated, they become complicit in the abuse as well. Add in the fact that he’s your husband and it’s his family, he has a huge responsibility here to help set boundaries and clear consequences if they aren’t respected.

      My heart goes out to you! I’m NC with my entire family of origin. I’m blessed to have a supportive husband and children but it can still be a lonely place. Plus, my husband wasn’t always the best support and the issues I was dealing with affected our relationship at times. I’ve had to accept that everyone on my side of the family believes that I’m crazy, mean and all that bad stuff. It’s not always easy but my truth is my saving grace. I know many more people know the real me and even more importantly, I know that I’ve stood up for myself.

      I hope you will update us on where things stand. I wish I could offer better answers. At the very least, know that there are people here who care and believe in you.

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    • Hi Amy Timberlake Mattson – I’m just reading your reply now- thank you for your kind words. The situation continues to deteriorate as far as i can see. My husband thinks its “time to move on” and he says (only joking of course) “man you sure how to hold a grudge”. and no, he has no interest in therapy, or even how I am doing in therapy. I’ve realized that he’s very narcissistic (I know he does not have NPD but I believe that his sister does), and that he’s gotten angrier over the years. I’ve also started to realize that he’s being abusive in a number of ways, especially passive aggressive little digs that are just jokes of course. I’m still in therapy and not sure where to go from here. But i certainly can’t go back to not seeing this stuff. I’ve started recording YouTube videos about narcissistic abuse. there’s quite a large community of survivors there as well. I will be linking my blog to my youtube channel soon when I get some editing done. But talking it out verbally has helped with some of the healing so I’m thankful for that.

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    • I’m sorry you have suffered so much. I feel you. It has been my experience that anyone who goes along to “make the peace” (like your husband, his family etc) are just as much the problem as the narc. The narc will only do what the family structure will allow. They are helping the narc abuse you.
      Please find sane support. The more people in your life that remind you that not only is the narcs behavior unacceptable but all those enabling are unacceptable too, is going to help you out of the fog. So that you work your way towards truly knowing that it is not your lot in life to be preyed upon or be surrounded by insane abusive people and help you see that what you might believe is good relations with some people, is actually pretty twisted from a healthy persons perspective. This will give you the clarity and perspective to make the changes you need to be free.
      It’s each person’s choice but Personally, I don’t believe that staying with anyone who finds it acceptable for you to suffer and who enables abuse is ever good. It may be better than you grew up with but its not really good.
      Best wishes

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    • More power to you for recognizing SIL for what she is. Maybe you and your husband can agree beforehand to limit the time you spend with her by planning an outing or some excuse not to get too wrapped up in her ploys. Wish you the best.

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    • Unfortunately, I have gotten no support from my husband or anyone else in his family for that matter. Its just more of the same cycle, over and over again. And its now December, another 6 months since I wrote my first comment, and not a damn thing has changed. i guess its hard to let go of the dream of “What could be, if only…” but he simply cannot be bothered to worry about anyone but himself. Sounds just like his sister. I haven’t been sleeping lately- and I’m sort of numb i guess cuz i know what this means. now i just have to put every ounce of faith that I have in God Almighty to rescue me & the kids from this.

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  10. Thank you for this post. It really helped me to read before I sent the “final blow (as my brother called it)” email. I have tried for years to discuss how I felt and what I saw as issues. I am not saying that I have not also caused harm in the family – I have. I also have owned up to what I have done and tried to be better.

    I got the “I’m disappointed in you, Guess family is not as important as you claim, no need to respond” text when I told my mother that we would not be visiting for Christmas.

    I sent an email to the family 4 days later explaining why I was not coming. It was very honest and included the 6 questions about toxic relationships with answers. My brother and sister did exactly what they accuse me of – verbal vomit of all the ways they have been hurt by me. My brother said they are old, will it be ‘poor me’ when they are gone, who will my next ‘abuser’ be when they are gone, He said that I am the toxic one and he is glad to be rid of me, that I have caused permanent damage to the family. My sister told me that I should have talked about the issues I have had. Little does she know I have talked for years and am tired of talking. There is no listening. I have written letters, called, sat and had conversations. My mother sent me an email a week later and said that she knew I had felt not-accepted into the family and that I was brave for sending my truths. She said that when I am ready, to call her. I don’t believe her and have not called. I need space.

    One thing that helps is that neither parent get along with majority of their siblings or cousins. It helps to know that I am not alone. My husband is supportive but has said he does not understand how I feel because it is not something he has experienced. He was proud of me for finally standing up to it. My best friend said that yes, I said a lot and she can see how the family would take the email as emotional hit and run but also said that she knows I have tried for years and knows hat the conversation could not have happened any other way. She said I will need one huge olive branch to heal the relationships with my parents and siblings but that they will also need to be healthy enough to receive it. She does not know if that day will ever come.

    Thank you again!!!

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    • Well done kassylady, I know its hard when everyone blames you for the families dysfunction, now you are taking steps to acknowledge that you deserve better, it takes sooo much courage, you should be proud. My NF father has convinced my Mum who used to be my best friend that I’m the trouble maker, she will not acknowledge the truth & prefers the comfort of denial to having an honest relationship with me. Sad state of affairs but she has been with NF since she was 17, shes now 67, well & truly indoctrinated I’d say. People find it difficult to understand the complications of being part of a NFOO, but you don’t need them to understand. Olive branches can take you right back to where you don’t want to be. I have gone NC with my Father since the Summer, its been quite a roller coaster but in my heart I feel freer than ever before. I surround myself with positive people & its wonderful. I advise anyone who is recovering from being part of a Narc family to read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. It helps you to let go of the past & release the crap that goes round & round your mind trying to make sense of it all. You’ve made your decision, don’t let anyone who doesn’t understand make you question it. Good luck hun, you are never alone x

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  14. I really appreciate your article. It really let me make an important decision. I know I have to keep doing NC. I was the family scapegoat. I just only got out now after a huge amount of scary difficulty. They still don’t get it and act all nice. This really scares me because it fools people and it means that it will be really hard to get through to them. At least everyone is calmer, but they still deny it. Unfortunately, for my schooling process for social service, they want me to reconcile with my family. But, it’s not my fault and if I forgive them I should be fine. How can I be expected to restore something that wasn’t there in the first place? Why can’t most times I get sympathy that I need let alone empathy? Most everyone seems to be looking at my problems with “unforgiveness” and “judgmentalism” and “rebellion” because my family is all nicey nice and now they are making a half step forward. Don’t get me wrong, it is good that they they are coming at all to the counseling sessions and have half an ear. But now it’s all talk of coming together and clearing through miscommunication. It was abusive, hello, abusive. I have to do NC for my healing. I’m not being bitter; I’m just protecting myself. I don’t want people who were that abusive to me in my life anymore. But I’ll look bad if I don’t stop doing NC and my process I’m pretty sure is done if I don’t. Why do people worship the family? How can I get people to see me as okay and that going to NC was the best thing I ever did with my life?

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    • Deborah, I understand exactly what you are saying! I went NC 8 years a go. Like you, it was THE BEST thing I’ve ever done for myself. A lot of my aunts uncles cousins etc…know how my nm is. They didn’t live it like I did but they know she is a “trouble maker” . However, there are a few who don’t understand and will question me and question what I’ve done, NC. I found out about a month ago that EF has stage 4 lung cancer. Those few who have questioned me in the past have recently texted or called me and told me that now, more than ever I should get back intouch with them. I must say it makes me sad to know ef is so sick. I have prayed for him and I wish he wasn’t sick. But… I told them he and nm made their choice 8 years ago. I didn’t do this THEY DID. You just have to come to terms that some people don’t understand and they NEVER will. I do not blame them for their beliefs….. I probably wouldn’t believe it either IF I HADNT LIVED IT.
      Stay strong!
      Donna J.

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  15. I just love this website, it has been so helpful and insightful. I have posted here previously but feel the need for some extra support just now. I went no contact with my father about seven years ago and low (hardly ever) contact with my mother. I got married a few months ago and refused to back down to the family of origin pressure to invite my father. The backlash is unbelievable!! Many of my aunts won’t speak to me and neither will my sister.

    Our mother is a narcissist and our father is a classic enabler. He has many issues himself as two of his sisters accused him of sexually molesting them when they were children. I cannot understand why then, they are giving me the silent treatment for not inviting him to my wedding??? It’s all so crazy!! My brother who lives in another country also did not attend my wedding as he did not approve of me not inviting my father but I received an email from him a few days ago not mentioning anything and acting like nothing has happened. Why has he contacted me for the first time in over a year?? My brother minimises our parents abuse and has stated to other family members that I am the problem, that I cannot be trusted and also that I need to realise that my parents did not abuse me out of malice. What was it then?? Hearing from him has thrown up all the issues again. My brother has never seen or even spoken to my husband as my family of origin see my marriage as a threat and in some way as ‘punishing’ them. He also never sent us a card, let alone a gift for our wedding and yet he thinks that he can just contact me like nothing has happened. He called my parents and my sister at Christmas but no phonecall to me?? If he feels that way about me, why bother with me at all?? Why not just stay away altogether?? My younger sister who also was terribly abused, has blamed me for everything and called me the most selfish person in the world. She has also said that how could I do this to my parents after ‘everything they did for me’!! My parents never did anything but abuse me (and all of us), so I don’t know where she is getting all this from??

    Forgive my rant but if I am the terrible person that they think I am, why won’t they just leave me alone?? I am Catholic, believe in God but have a difficult time in letting go. Just when I am starting to let go, be happy and living my own life, back in they arrive, uninvited and act like nothing has happened. I thank God that I have such a loving, supportive husband. I feel out of sync at the moment but thanks to you all for reading this. I’m beginning to feel better already!!

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    • Hello fellow survivor,
      The need to brush things under the carpet & ignore the massive white elephant in the room is very strong in some people. This denial in turn can effect their physical & mental health. I have seen it manifest in terms of diabetes, blood pressure, alcoholism & other stress related illness in my ex-family.

      You cannot be responsible for people’s reactions. That is the only way they know how to react.
      There is a saying-‘When people show you who they are, believe them’ 🙂
      Hoping for any other reaction from then will only bring you disappointment.

      You have chosen to live with the truth & the facts. They have chosen to live in denial.
      These differences will show up especially on occasions where the truth will haunt them.
      Your silence will question their values, your strength will inspire new direction in those who are weak.

      Wishing you much happiness & joy in your new life together as husband & wife. 🙂

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  16. All my life from being a tiny girl I have suffered emotional and physical abuse from my mother and my father, who has a serious drink problem, and he was an enabler. My sister the golden child. All my life I have wondered why I was chosen to be blamed for everything, not been allowed an opinion, had to emotionally support my mother from a very young age, been manipulated into doing things like her cleaning etc, been robbed effectively of my childhood. I would be scared to go home after school, I’d never know what mood she would be in. I have been a total people pleaser all my life and a good child scared to be naughty. It has affected my self esteem so badly. I have felt unloved, emotionally tortured, sad and lonely so much of my life. You can only try for so long. It has made me blame myself but I wasn’t at fault I know that now. I tried to fix everything for everyone all the time, it never worked, it was never going to… Even tho my dad lived with us my mum was jealous if I had any kind of contact with him so I ended up with no relationship with him.

    A counsellor told me my mum is a narcissist and I started to read up on the subject. It has taken me a number of more years to get to where I am now. I understand so much, I don’t blame myself and I have had to just now walk away after my mum did a couple of unforgivable things one of which, try to get my daughter to fall out with me. I realise the poison will never go away. She is totally justified in her evil ways and would happily destroy me but I won’t let her. I owe it to my grown up kids and their children to stop this now so I haven’t even tackled her about her latest actions I have simply ignored her. I have managed to have a wonderful relationship with my daughter and get on well with my son. Truth be told I’m ashamed to admit they have been affected by her and my lack of ability to deal with it all. They have seen her physically attack me for not agreeing with her opinion. They have seen her wipe the floor with me verbally so many times. They won’t have any more to do with my family as there is always trouble, which my mother incites. She blames me for turning my kids away from her but I haven’t they have seen and heard so much.

    I am so grateful that I am not like her. I could always see it was wrong but failed to understand. All I wanted was a normal loving family but that will never be. I mourn for the mother I never had. It is so useful to research the Internet. You can only begin to heal when you truly believe you aren’t to blame. None of us is perfect but narcissists have an agenda always and the only way to win is to distance ur self, put in strong boundaries and if that fails walk away.

    When it’s your parent they know how to manipulate…

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    • Maxine, reading that was like reading my life story- every bit of it.
      Breaking the pattern/cycle will strengthen you & help you blossom into the person you were truly meant to be. You are free in every sense of the word. So are your children & the future generations to come.
      YOU have made this choice to pass on positivism, happiness, strength & freedom – Bravo!!!
      I know your children will be thankful 🙂

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